Under My Skin

2011-01-17T02:55:00.003+08:00

Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.

what up. it's been a while, this is the return of my infamous hiatus. well over twenty one and it's pass 2010 for twenty eleven. i've got some resolutions, & the year of 2010 was a great awakening. i'm chasing dreams, it seemed time had finally work it's magic unto me to uncover the other side, a road of self-discovery. perhaps more so an enlightment of some sort.. i'm grateful that i took this decision, it's part of my lifestyle now. well it's a little rough but the satisfaction of being able to feel alive while seeking my goals are never damping with each failures paved a better means for the future. twenty evelen will prove to me yet an ever more amazing journey...

love ya'll for giving me support, and especially doubters i thank you for making me much tasty person :)

2010-10-10T00:12:00.004+08:00

‎"What's the point of living if you don't take risks and follow your instincts? Because your instincts are the only truths in this world. You subconsciously know what you want, whats right or wrong and which decisions you should make. Society just clouds those thoughts and before you know it, you fall into a trap with no way out but a long lonely depressing road" scott herman.

2010-09-22T01:07:00.006+08:00

want them embedded in me

ever wondered how his million dollar smile dazzled people
or striking eyes with so much secrets beneath it
maybe just a EGO like his to match his talents
perhaps it's perseverance. practice makes perfect.. just small eyes but tremendous HEART. walk of a man..
in a world so much to overcome. they rise & shine ever so brightly
so here's my thought. i'm paving way to create my own destiny :)

2010-09-12T02:46:00.005+08:00

Departure

these one last few weeks together were the best among in my life. enjoyed to the real damn best.. Sei Jiao JON!!! what an emo night la.. from basketballs, to sleepovers, movies, shoppings, GURLS, even just yao cheh ho with ur harimau berbulu, to countless of arguement & jokes we've been through. AYE to the moments we even got parted with our busy lives and reunited for the same cause. COS WE ROCK. the moment seing u dropping into the departure zone is just so damn fucking hard, watching someone who's been with me for years to go.. you were surely the best damn thing that happen in my life. IM REALLLLLLLY BLESS to have you guys walk over in my damn freaking awesome life. LOVE YOU BROOOOO! ♥

2010-08-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

POISONED
i get a feeling that the nation i once used to call home, where i was born. live in and still do, are growing into a nation that's been victimised due to predicaments of racism. this was once a beautiful and wonderful place to live with vibrant cultures and ethnics groups. as one of the minority, i feel alienated and i'm pretty sure i'm not the only one feeling the same. we were BORN and RAISED in this damn country. who the hell imposed all the other crappy rights and laws which at the end of the day had indirectly draw a line between the minorities and majorities. we are all children of this nation, and i could feel was the atmosphere here is getting more venomous as time passed. what has happened.. this nation will never progress further under such conditions damned by the narrow minded.

2010-08-16T14:30:00.002+08:00

Alpha the good guy
watch your thoughts, they become your words;
watch your words, they become your actions;
watch your actions, they become your deeds;
watch your deeds, they become your character;
watch your characters, it becomes your destiny!

be the man of your life and take charge, using assumptions to lead.

2010-08-11T22:38:00.004+08:00

Durian Amor

oh yeah darling, durian season are back. these are images of my favourite type of durian. deserve so much more, these are known as Musang King. look at the beautiful complexion of the durian and the color. it's dark yellow, the flesh is thick accompanied by sweet and bitter taste. it''s the best i can ever like, never get better than this. the seed is small compared to other durians. the price says it all 1kg for 12bucks. mmmph ooompah loompah delicious i love this. BEST BREED of fruit can offer. and yeah i love the smelll burps ;)

2010-08-04T22:05:00.002+08:00

ROCKABUAY :)
1)This is a LIFESTYLE.
2) Fear - fear of failure, fear of success, fear of rejection, fear of women. etc
3) Lazyness
4) One dimensional Thinking

The interviewer was asking him about his swing and why he does certain things. Tiger Woods said that he doesn't think about what his swing look likes, what he FOCUSES on is his ball flight. He WANTS a penetrating ball flight that will bore through the wind and is going to be affected as little as possible by cross winds. His swing and technique is designed to achieve that goal, NOT the other way around!
some inplants that's crucially needed to improve xD

2010-08-03T14:35:00.000+08:00

FOUNTAINS of YOUTH
As we know, cell division error, aided by free radicals, accumulates errors throughout the body as time passes. A person of 80 obviously has more errors than that of 40. His tissues start to fail, making his organs fail, then entire organ systems collapse, until life is snuffed out.

In the same way, our minds start out pristine and pure (that of the child!) and everything is playful, fun, and simple. But as time passes, philosophies and bitter memories accumulate. The diseased person looks at life only through the philosophical lens, living a life of past memories, and so his life decays and decays until there is no life within him.

Pook hands you the chalice. Drink and pass the cup around. This water from the Fountain of Youth will wash away these errors, all those ‘frames’ your bitter memories eat at your mind. Drink to the girls that rejected you viciously. Drink to the ‘macho’ guys that beat you up in school. Drink to the chains of routines, errands, and appointments. Drink to your ambition, drink to your melancholy, drink to your loneliness. Drink to your heart’s content and pass the cup around. Your mind has now absorbed the blessed waters of the Fountain of Youth. You are now the light of the world! Your life is now young, fruitful, fun, easy, simple, and your body will reflect it as well.

The world is now your sandbox. Rejoice! Many people get swallowed up in their vanity, all believing themselves 'brilliant' and 'smart'. They follow their philosophies unquestioningly and their lives walk on the quicksand of melancholy. But... they see the new you and it smashes all their philosophies to bits. They ask each other, "How can he be so happy? How can he be so ALIVE? Let us study him and we will write articles and manifestos on him." But you know the truth. Their ambitions have consumed them while you look on life with youthful eyes...
...and live in a Child's Paradise.

2010-07-31T21:22:00.006+08:00

if TORRES is playing for Liverpool FC next season, i should get my first LIVERPOOL jersey with his no.9 on it. He is the face of Liverpool ever since he came! rawr

El Nino. R.O.C.K.S.

2010-07-29T00:30:00.002+08:00

I NEED A LIFT

i wanna swimmmmm bad bad badly. do you know how good it feels when your floating in the water & just staring above the sky. it's one of the best damn thing you can experienced if you know how to swim. i love every single damn moment that was given... i don't know how much i can just go on talking bout how much i love doing this... it calms myself down and let things run as it is. perhaps my holiday had just begun in the most unpredictive mood & it's getting exciting with some bumps and bruises. :)

2010-07-27T22:55:00.003+08:00

Larger than Life

Before i'm in TF. & almost three months on... after mounting tonnes of sweats. diets. determination. effort. u name it...
TADAAAAAA. pretty impressive huh, i've still got long way to go. :)

oh man, the past few days was truly a blessing. we dudes hang out like there's no tomorrow. i reminisce and missed all the times we had bros. you guys had shaped changed and made me, always been part of my life. i couldn't tell how much it'll be until it hits us together we're growing each day. i love everyone of you. basketball was one love that pulled us together. we played all day long & all night long, then cars girls dotA and everything else too made us like glued gays. BROMANCE rocks. totally sinked in superb overwhelmingness. thanks for all the love showered together BROS

2010-07-23T20:24:00.001+08:00

FUCK laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

i created nice story for SALT, & my movies invitation got fucking revoked.
how can i missed out on that in my inbox! shit la... gah.
fuck!

2010-07-21T01:45:00.009+08:00

American's Lust in 19th Century

Perspective from Gentleman of the Union

Dear,

Since I had left you to serve for the greater cause of the Union, my heart had been aching gradually and could never imagine a day gone by without thinking of you, my dear. You were the source of strength, the voice within that kept me staying sane from the midst of madness occurring around me. I’m sorry for leaving you behind without a word, as I could have not done it more gracefully because it’s killing me inside to be apart from your presence. As I marched to camp reminiscing memories, I never regret leaving behind anything other than you my love. It was especially hard for me serve in a distant land, leaving you to the belongings I had left. However, do not fear for my safety nor worry about my well-being as you know I would be healthy gentleman while I’m writing this letter for you, darling.

Recounting the early days reporting to army camp, it was such culture shock as it occurred to me witnessing these bands of young lads aged between eighteen to twenty nine serving for the army. In addition, some of these lads were barely even sixteen. It was such a surprise that the Union allowed these lads to join the army who literally do not possess any military knowledge. Their faces portray a passionate youth spirit seeking adventure and intended to kick some rebel Southerners butt. They are out to satisfy their desire for glory and do not fight for the pure cause that Uncle Abe had set forth in the Emancipation Proclamation during the Civil War.

Moreover, these lads were civilians, and drill sergeant was deployed to train the enlisted men proper way of marching. My dear, you would had laugh at the some of the lads when you could experience the march being taught with a wisps of hay tied to the left foot, and wisps of straw tied to the right foot of the soldiers; the sergeant would shout “Hay-foot, straw-foot, hay-foot, straw-food” to differentiate the lads between right and left.

Everyone here practiced a relaxed and laid back attitude towards the superiors. Generally, we consumed salted pork bathe in strong coffee, weevils infested hardtack, and whiskey that taste like “rot gut”. The food was nothing decent from what you could prepare for a meal. I realized how much I missed the bread that you produced early in the morning, and vegetable servings harvested from our farms. How was everything back in the farm where we spent so much of our time taking care of the plants? I hope it was worth our efforts, that it still produces fruitful amounts to keep you full all through the months.

After months of preparation, our boys of 114 Pennsylvania Zouaves decorated our uniforms with colorful stripes of French military units set forth marching to Gettysburg under the command of Lieutenant Fred. F. Cavada. On July 1, 1963 approximately 4p.m. the Confederates army had launch an assault on the Union army.
Competing with the other regiments, we would march in great speed to aid General George G. Meade in 2 July 1963. The Union artillery fire in rages at Wheatfield and Peach Orchard as the Confederates army came in waves to smash every property belonged to the Union. We hold the Percussion rifle musket against the rebels’ pickets and artillery fire that led the infantry attack.
We would fall back as many of us were bruised and wounded brutally. Lieutenant Fred. F. Cavada was captured by the rebels. The images of blood baths and amputated body were too harsh for someone to watch their brothers being annihilated. These images had baffled me throughout the day; I could never comprehend in words what the ravages had wrecked through my morale.

Later I was sent to the hospital with several other mortally wounded soldiers. It seemed like hell broke loose on judgment day and the devil in the form of doctor would operate our body with dirty instrument to let us know the price for the war was far too painful for America to experience as a whole. Spread my tales to our sons and daughters; let them know at what price America had paid for expansion of slavery. Not forgetting to mention, I Love You.

2010-07-19T21:38:00.001+08:00

HOLLA Holidae in
FUCK YEAH! my fucking weird fucking semester is over! no more fucking two days of class. & FUCKING exam is FUCKING done. i can't stop fucking JUBILATE in JOY. here i want a FUCKING good 1 FUCKING damn month of HOLIDAY. FUCKING MISS EVERYONE of my friends. FUCK ya'll! xD

2010-07-16T01:10:00.003+08:00

hey pretty world.
pt told me, i'm gonna be featured in tf cubicals. wow. i looked back to my old pics before the past two months. to my knowledge there's none other than some cacated side face view. but anyway, i'm glad i was told to be able to do that. :) these two months had been a ride that i didn't know i could do this much for what i want. i pour tonnes of sweat & the results i couldn't really feel it bare that i'm vain. mirror is on every single day of my damned life, only people around me realized some differences in my arms. work hard bro, u gonna get the toned up big boobs u want in months. keep going hans.

2010-07-14T11:15:00.002+08:00

Changing Times
Hey there sugar baby, saw you twice in the pop show. You taste just like a little mix rock & roll. i like you a lot lot, all i want is hot hot. These are heated moments in changing times; pick ups arts that tunes me. my life would be nothing without my ownself, music, love, cash, cars, BABES, friends, families, sports. FAME. wanna be all the good thing & robbed the world from all it's good stuff they can offer. i'm a spoilt yet coveted in glossy glossy grounded self. actually saya pun sudah blur apa yang saya nak sampaikan untuk post ini mannnnn. tak apa lah, let's rewind unwind i really really have to sturdy, finals on next week then i'm on hiatus for one month! woohoo

let me map out what i wanna do in this one month, get buffier. travel with friends, earn money. eat good good good food. procrastinate to the max. clothes, shops, & starbucks my love. i would love a bunch of java chips running down to my tummy. MmmmmYummay! :) btw, sometimes we think we know someone just by judging what we see but there's soooo much more than meets the eye. especially when you are special enough to unfold and unmasked every damn layer that covers the real person inside a human. that's also when you know if these person is your truly real companion or just someone else not worth the time caring for. Ma' life's thuggin' in thick war, still a newbie learning how to crawl & keep learning new thang.
IMMA BOMB in times to come. POOF xD

2010-07-11T19:48:00.013+08:00

SLAM DUNK

ze storyline was based right off post swimming era. i was just a little well over 12, and SLAM DUNK anime is always shown on AXN channel. My fav. just after school in the afternoon i could just sit on the couch & stay glued to the tv till all the anime series is done.

then this humorous yet serious basketball series were an amazing exposure i had, little did i know i was slowly getting hooked on the game on basketball. It grew watching tentative these superb anime.
Shohoku's bands of members, well my favourite character during the competition gotta be Mitsui cus he's a premier 3 point shooter with an exceptional skill. the team comprises an unconventional mix of talents to make it a superb five.
as each episodes passed by, it slowly ignited the intensive fire in me to have a shot at basketball after swimming, & short stint with football. i started playing when i was thirteen, it was one fine morning accompanied with my friends. and then...
i've started to play with my classmates in the afternoon. i sucked at first, as everyone would. but i kept sticking with learning the fundamentals... And so, the story had coveted much of a slamdunk anime fans. slowly, my skill developed and tracy macgrady was the NBA player i once used to adore. But my favourite team was BOSTON CELTICS nonetheless.
i started joining competitions, & the times i had in between every single ones of my teammates & now bestie was great. Actually the best part of learning how to play ball, was learning every canton bad words that would come. MAHAI, MACAOHAI, CAOCIBAI, DIUNIAHAI, KANINIA, Diuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. FUCK! how come miss wan... hehe. the endless yamcha session
well well, i've even started chasing each NBA games broadcast live on ESPN & Starsports. The Playoff was a treat because every player dream was to get their hands on the golden potbelly & be the CHAMPIONS of the WORLD.
Honestly, some of the best moment i've had was living through competitions. the moments i can be serious. Yes i've falter before & that's some of the things that made me better not just a player but a person as a whole. Not forgetting the off court dramas, you know we had factions divided & i'd never will understand too. Some people just doesn't like you & i don't give a damn about it cos i know i never done anything wrong in first place. If having a swagger was wrong then too bad, i just got an unshakable love for my own confidence.
the LAKERS, oh well some of the team i despised. but these feeling of hate had evaporated with maturation and common sense. i've sweat, got injured, played under the rain, under many circumstances. even considered basketball as my wife... these game is not just a game, it is about life too.
Undoubtly, basketball had shaped me. yeah, although i couldn't dunk i'm really glad i could be playing the game of love. Soaring and trying to achieve dreams, it had taught me to work hard & be daring to accomplish your dreams.
Swooosh, as you know 08 was the year of Celtics. as a fans i'm really super duper damn happy to watch them triumphant over LAKERS. hehe peace up to Paul & the crew.
when i was down, i digged down & search for answers. watching MJ was probably one of the best things i could have learn as a life journey
*I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. But I can't accept not trying.
*My attitude is that if you push me towards something that you think is a weakness, then I will turn that perceived weakness into a strength.
*Some people want it to happen, some wish it would happen, others make it happen.
and his famous mentor Phil Jackson.
*In basketball -- as in life -- true joy comes from being fully present in each and every moment, not just when things are going your way.
*Like life, basketball is messy and unpredictable. It has its way with you, no matter how hard you try to control it. The trick is to experience each moment with a clear mind and open heart. When you do that, the game--and life--will take care of itself.that was the first year i've joined and1 btw. thank you everything that you had given me. these were chronicles of my growing pains and sweet stuff i encounter while playing a simple game of basketball. :) much more than just a game.

2010-07-07T01:20:00.012+08:00

What If I’m a Russian Spy

Agent ID : 8
Nickname : Vladmir Arshavin
Age : Undisclosed
Place of Birth: Moscow, Russia
Raised in : Malaysia
Mother Tongue: Manglish/English. 1/100th Russian
Headquarters: Kremlin Moscow, Russia

A document had been dropped into house of Agent 8. Opened and read the content of the document. Extreme Confidentiality was put, and the mission assigned was rated ASAP! (as soon as possible?) Agent 8, you are hereby under the command of Secret Russian Spy Headquarters in Kremlin had been deported to service the great mother Russia. The nation security had been under scrutiny and needed immediate containment of the problem at hand. A sensational celebrity known as Lady GaGa had been a victim of a suspicious threat to an unknown terrorist attack while performing her Monster Ball concert in U.S.A. She had been cleared healthy and ready to perform in Moscow in part of her absence to World Cup opening concert. It is of great concerned of Russia that you protect the civilian from the dangerous threats from terrorist and the lives of the Russians.
*message self detonate in minutes*

OMG? i'm gonna go and kick terrorist ass to protect GaGa? hahaha. this gonna be the best damn mission of my career. every damn fans are going to know who's the man that saved GaGa's with a telephone call, hello i'm ALEJANDRO , i want to protect you & your bad romance. so just dance :) but how the hell i'm going to get close to her? oh yeah, gotta go to Kremlin headquarters & get a make over.
I've been waiting for you Agent 8, Vladmir Arshavin. i'm going to do a total make over for you to get up close to GaGa and make sure she's in perfect condition. Remember your top priority is to sniff out the threats that the terrorist are posing. & protect the lives of the Russians.
let's operate, anddddd...... walahhhhh. now your one real chick, wait just have to ammend a lot more so you'll be a real feminist.
god, you got big arms. hair's not long enough... several hours later. Yes, let's work on it abit more... now get to your mission and kick some terrorist ass.
hey, mirror? Holy CRAP, that's me? impressive. Now i'm a blonde? memang chun kao kao! *snaps.. speak english girl!!! speak like a girl now....
oh look, i've got a pistol. finally! this mission is definitely for real. Date is 07July2010, 15:00. Lady GaGa scheduled to arrive at anytime in Kremlin Moscow. The crowd just overran the entire street crowding. How the hell i'm gonna find a location to locate the freaking terrorist. Hell No man, this is way too many people around.

Woohooo oh oh, wooo oh oh. caught in a bad jam... GaGa oh LaLa, where ya'll terrorist man.
GaGa had reached, good afternoon GaGa i'm Anjill Jolie. i'll be your tour guide during your stay for your concert. As well, your safety is 100% secured under the an organization responsible for your safety.
Concert begins 2100. Fans are all over the stadium, somethings is really fishy. during the song Alejandro.... i watched tentatively over the stage. the male models could walk in high heels? hell no, that guy just overdo me. i'm not even on high heels, thats tough life for them. WHAT? the lights had just blacked out? don't call my name don't call my name, ALEJANDRO ALEJANDRO. *Lady GaGa shreaked: HELPPPPPPPPPP! ALEJANDRO just let me gooooooooo.....*
BANG BANG. the strong roar from my pistol were heard, and crowd went wild & out of control. security guards were all over the place... GaGa was gone. she was kidnapped by her male dancerssss. they're the evil behind all of the work, all of the threats. NO. i chase and got to the scene, i'm her biggest fan i'll follow her until she loves me PAPARAZZI. at the backstage back up arrived, AGENT 19 reporting. Agent 19 had traced the bad guys. right now, we need to save GAGA i shouted or there'll be no more Pokerface from GaGa. let's make them pay for endangering the lives of Russian & put those guys in RUSSIAN ROULETTE.
BANG BANG. ahhhhh i've got hit...
what? a Dream? did i just went over too much... boring lectures, sucky GaGa. shouldn't dreamt bout you. wanna be a better spy than a sucky one like me? gotta catch SALT.
Premiering in JULY 29.
:)

2010-07-07T00:31:00.002+08:00

reminiscent

hari ini selasa,
so routine's on. bla bla... dengan itu i nak cerita wif you a little bit about aku. saya adalah seorang budak cina berumur twenty this year. & ada banyak koleksi mainan when i'm still young la. now where u all pergi?? tinggalkan i jer, kini i rindu gambar saya didalam. also i rindu masa depan i jugak, because i am everywhere all over the places. i nak jadi raja kalau boleh & rule the entire universe macam masked rider rx tewaskan semua orang jahat. i know i know, just been thinking lah, i'm like coming close to one year big grandpops death anni, fenomena ini telah membangkitkan semangat i untuk menjadi seorang yang useful untuk masa future yang akan come. it's so super long journey man, i just wanna tell you up to this point. i got through the most painful part, & breezing with life. :) i'm happy with the way things are going, although there's some hiccups tapi i GEMBIRA. tu jer yang penting kan? i ada pikir jugak whats missing, & it's always still there cinta. bile lar will i dapat cinta seorang dengan yang deep deep deeply madly trueeeely. for sure gadis ini mesti cinta kan me deep deep deeply madly trueeely jugak.

this is me today, i know i'm greedy. i look on to be perfect, kerana i adalah seorang budak cina yang tidak inginkan kebiasaan hidup. UNIQUEfy ME.
loveya'll darlings&peeps who made me day a little more cantekkk. ^^

2010-06-30T19:23:00.002+08:00

Prey or Predator.

Bryan was in sensible mood for joy. He had completed journeys of relentless crossing over fences that stood up against his path in his search of a glorious day. Then machines that could outdo horses in the name of saga boi, his ever loyal companion; he rode that boi & in dreams of reaching his home ever so happily. Oh wait, there's one more hurdle. the moment he got out & stucked in the grey pavement, there was another man who rode a blue steel named Altis. nothing ever looked so strange, & a sense of danger was smelt by Bryan as an evil Brown Guy stuffed in his dark helmet riding a two wheels junk. Brown Guy stop next to Mr.Altis & strecth to reach his armory portraying an evil intention to threaten Mr.Altis. In reaction, Mr. Altis reversed his vehicle & Bryan thought it'd hit his Saga boi. & OhMyGosh thank god it was saved as he reversed simultaneously as well. that was a knife shrung towards Mr.Altis in foul demeanor. Ze Brown Guy was causing havoc down the blood streams & catching bad attention in the surrounding.

that was exactly an unexpected event, human prey on another's weaknesses. what had gone so unnoticingly, the signs were shown somehow. sometimes it goes without giving any warning & it hits you so hard. all you can ever do, is just the feeling of helplessness yet your alive. & that's what keeps everyone, or at least someone macam saya STRONGER. :)

love hans.

2010-06-30T00:24:00.002+08:00

Tuesday & all of it's worthy coaster ride.

hello love,
so how was tuesday? i'll say it's freaking tiring to start it off & boring as all other tuesday will turn out to be. morning all of it's pressure rush, hah. the love of peejays road & it's content of idiotic drivers slowing the traffics alike. well, i surely will managed to slip through the seemingly endless lecturing moments & HOLLA. my love is here, let's work my butt out. the things i've been waiting for wholly day.

i've joined rpm classes, somekind of cycling class that beats your heart out gasping for every single air available in simultaneous motion. it's just totally & mentally challenging, not forgetting it's physically beating. oh man, i just love it when i've completed the damn class. minus the fats i'm carrying. big hell yeah !!! :D

alright then, my real fav. part of the day. BODY COMBAT! this class kick ass i can sweat & shout my lungs out. the best gotta be shouting my lungs out. whole day accumulation of stresses is like bottled up & thrown away into the ocean.

So long for my day, this is one hell of a beautiful ending to a day i've came to know as tuesday.
love hans. :)

2010-06-29T00:36:00.002+08:00

nothing stays in your march to eternal sleep

try to appreciate everything around you, because nothing you possess will be with you even after the moment you close your eyes eternally.

dream big, chase your dreams. try to enjoy the best that life can bring, no one gonna write your life story other than yourself. authenticity, will power, determination. this week had started & i'll embark you with the best i've got to give.

just a kid trying to live out his dreams :)

2010-06-27T01:34:00.005+08:00

Some lovin' from month long hiatus.

hey peepers,
yeah i'm back. just took a real long time off, wondering what i've been concentrating these weeks? well, it's just more self-improvement. i'm chasing my dreams, & it's almost two months since i've joined fitness centre. it's been amazing progress on my bod. Besides that, of course i opened my mind to few prospects.

Seriously, what's my motivation? i wanna change my life, i expect myself to live a life nothing close to ordinary. i don't wanna be just another face in the crowd. & i will achieve the simplest dream of them all first. A HOT BOD. i love materials, just as much as i enjoy real honest company from true honest friends who are there for you in your darkest moments.

Oh btw, it's been a year since MJ gone. which also meant it's been 11 months someone real special in my heart had gone. my grandpops always have a place in my heart. i still do remember you often, & been carrying out my promise pretty well up until now. hopefully i'll get through this hurdle once more again. :)

Seriously, life's meant to be live the way you want it to be. make proper use of yourself hans. you can do it. Chinkz out peeps, have nice day ya'll.

2010-05-16T18:18:00.004+08:00

hibernating to hipped up in times to come :)

Bi Rain Jihoon

Figure he'll be my role model for building up all these hype i'm gon generate later on. this time i'll do the walk 1st before i talk the walk. i had great life. i could chase my dreams & the power to change is all under my control. nothing much more than knowing almost everything is under my command. hans you can work it, 1 year you'll be there. let's ride this & take the town the next time you'll hit 'em down the road.

life's tough, i'm holding on just well working the silver lining for myself to light up my darkest hours.

2010-04-17T03:06:00.002+08:00

GO BIG GREEN MEAN MACHINE!!!!
Last postseason celtics tittle defense was a disappointment with KG down. i could feel this year would be the epitome of the celtics dynasty in it's manifest destiny with the Big 3 dwindling down in their career number as they're ageing. there is always a celtic pride roaring upwhilst the players reliving that tradition of cigar smoking when hanging 17 banners are all but glorious history. i could and hope i could this postseason would be it's 18 tittle as WORLD CHAMPIONS. GO CELTICS ;p sincerely written as fan.

2010-04-06T23:22:00.004+08:00

bickering that makes the mockery

"to accept all the experience as raw material out of which the human spirit distill meanings and values is a part of the meaning of maturity" howard thurman.
i do extensively ponder upon some question that intrigues the curiosity of my very nature; that all human are endowed with flawed nature as we're made. under inifinite quest for fulfillment will we ever find a safe haven to uncover all those unmet desires & dreams. there, when it's never fulfill all those needs where we mourn and torn under so much torment why would god or any inspiring being gave us that means to infinite needs in such a limiting body where we age, and eventually die alone. tho thee and i ponder, somethings would be beyond the comprehension of humans. should be living in realistic goals that would be reachable & we'll falter, but it's in the essence of trial would make life worth living with all these imperfections we fought to seek the perfection in every matter one would longed for.

FITNESS centre, i'm gunning ya down. so much for today, i

2010-03-31T22:42:00.002+08:00

Not Myself Tonight

this one is raw. your twenty boi & time seemed to premature at eightteen? advance to the twenties or older. i need a soul determination to rule out procrastinating nature infested me deeply. need to understand more? fuck you don't need, this time only i will carry out the life i've drawn myself to. materialize it will be the only thing that'll relinquish the feeling of jittery joyous moments. shouldn't be posting this are you, keep the game face on boi.

btw, ching ming passed or so i dont know. all i know is, grandpops i still do miss you & think of you in someway somehow. it reminds me of how good i was being under your vivacious love. songs from a real grandson.

2010-03-22T00:26:00.002+08:00

GUESS

procrastinating lately, hey whatsup readers? :)

the past week was same old none less than good. Rise Rise, i shall feel empowered to move my butt across the road & move. i dont think it be good to sum up the week just like that,

well finally worked out in the gym, my baby boi got knocked by a stick. & pretty deprived of the essence of music work. god, life needs to be more productive or by 2012 you won't even be buffed hans. work it work it. your growing tummy now, stay focus.

have good day readers ;p

2010-03-15T04:26:00.002+08:00

Reminiscing Sake

if one day, just living without a past. i wonder how it be like. erased all the good & bad, all there's to left was just an empty shell. was a life like this worth living? suddenly, all that's left of you was just an ashtray of diminished cigarettes, the light is put out. only the ashes were left visible of what a glory it was, afterall we all go still go to coffin alone. materials don't stay, but i like every other human would want to surround myself with these. everyone does so, like a sense of security. all that's left to reminisce for me seems alot, but those days dreaming boulevard was just beautiful. every silly & stupidity postulated was an event eclipsed to the present day man you see now. loves reader, signing off.

2010-03-12T00:38:00.002+08:00

How you'd like the expression,
Party all night, sleep all day. i'd throw my problems away
LIFE WOULD BE EASY. :)

okay, i don't exactly remember the time piece where i rocked my emotions here. it's been quite long, i guess. i'm pretty much not going over to over scrutinized state. exams, blah blah. i had so much coming under the schedule i guess i don't even have time to think what's the purpose. good? better hope so, it all of sudden felt like i'm practically acting in role of yoyo & just let it spin all out. i need get some air pretty soon, tomorrow's last exam finale. & new term gets kicking on the next week. hallelujah, i could procrastinate ol day long. But hell it's been a superb ending of the term. i've practically skectched on my terms & loves for 2010, well it be anabolically impressive if i could physically & mentally reach my state of nirvana. surely gives me a feeling of enlightenment. part of the plan includes getting buffed well of course as usual this one been taking quite some while. that's the only plan i've got anyway. and well you know, party all night. i happy right now, i have almost alot of control over everything that i wanted, & man decisions i need will go my way. 2years of jeapordy rips the side of smile i never been able to enjoy, & through these painful journey i've set myself upon i had bitterly mustered & grown into a more able kid perhaps. literally, i'm just spilling over things that came through my mind. it's been centuries or lightyears i could have probably lunge my expression out in this little haven i used to talk myself. if these kind life had an insecurity in it, be it as i don't noticed the little black spot in the vast ocean blue. girls? practically, i don't really value that much of love more for you females counterpart. inmorally attracted by lust in looks, but morally affected by a beautiful soul. eloquence of equalibirium would make you my Marlyn Monroe of modern ages. all that matters at the end of this whole frets and craps i spilled is just simply i enjoyed my life now.

signing out with love,

if your the competitive readers such major sugary for you to read all of these. muacks

2010-02-19T20:20:00.002+08:00

Still coming under impression of...

So my brothers & sister had me the best run on Chinese New Year. Present me things that of cos money can't buy, be the best company i had. Been busy busy like a buzzing bee, i'll be a fat one of cos. Been a good good life, i intend to ask for more of cos. ;p that's coming from my greedy part, it's me to be that way excuse me.
& you Melissa, thank you for everything. I'm so damn fugged addicted to the Peas E.N.D right now that each time i tune in i just wanna party & it's so sad that i had tonnes shit of assignment to wrap it up before the holiday ends. But then.. i'm still up for one when the time is right. I'm definitely gonna miss you when your back in NZ.

See ya my deliberate readers, much love from me. muahs AYE to Chinese New Year all my mateys

2010-02-13T23:14:00.004+08:00

Hello love,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAAAAR!
rawrrrr tiger is here :)
for all my lovely friends, wish you all have the best of the bestest. the ones i care la, the ones i hate? well just figure out. :)

tonight was something different, the usual reunion dinner wasn't much the same then it was. a strange feeling of missing someone, perhaps you're watching us over somewhere i don't know. i wish you were doing great too leaving this mortal world behind. there's alot of things changed, but ur little grandchild will remember. & well, this CNY will be just as good. start the angpao sessions now, & love all the new stuff i get.

hope all of you friends enjoy your time as well. :D

2010-02-06T14:08:00.002+08:00

6 February

First sight of February was restless, well into the days i'd passed. wonder well into the nights, still hard to accept some facts that slipped through my hands. tho thy shalt go on war by running away till last drop of breath, i ponder on the sight of a victor. everything matters much, or maybe not anymore.

i'm officially deprived on dancefloor, loud musics, & liqour. OFFICIALLY.

2010-01-26T19:59:00.008+08:00

Hulahuuu. i feel extravagantly naked yet beautiful

this happened out of gut feeling, i kinda love it but at same time i do miss my old hair. haha, the flinging part especially. Chinese Nu Year is coming & i can't wait for it. let's recap the past weeks, some of things happened but i want to remember these following more cus it's like kinda important for me. xD

let the picture do the justice for me. back in college first,

after weeks and months, finally we're out for good together gether. hehe, i miss it sooo much going out with all of you guys. it's been a superb superb day

then the peeps from highschool who rocked & tore down every moments together

we were so young then,& we grew up together in the space between and under getting pissed and down under each of our nose. u guys were the best i could have and am glad that you made life so much fun in highschool :)

well as for those who enquiring, life's still going great of course not for the assignment part but other than that i been a good man living a good life. one only could hope this is everlasting, even it don't it was the best time i had for the whole time as a whole. December been really generous on me, first part of January was wholly a warm summer for me. see ya, till then much love from me.

2010-01-12T16:09:00.003+08:00

fly like bird, so high.

had a super awesome night out for my post birthday party. this fun was some do, something i'll remember for a while & perhaps even longer. more than i could realized, something i expected, close to fulfillment. just as beautiful as fantasy

so hello, class begins. new semester, new year, birthday passed. it felt like i stepped on a railway in a zoomed fast track train. never knew time went by just like that, now i'm staring books, chunking on pens, writting off for a close to perfect grade keeping me in safe hands. what more i would ask for? alot more, i needed more. feels like i couldn't stop at one but things are coming and probably falling into places just the way things should be. i've been on the best 3weeks holiday & so far i guess i'm really getting along and walking my path good enough. life's haven't been this kind for a while & i feel great. hehee

if you want to know, literally a cock for cock i'm a bull that will never stop at one. lol happy days are beautiful, sad days are ugly but this what makes mine as interesting a journey would've been. loves signing off, muacks. ;D

2010-01-08T01:03:00.002+08:00

Guess what, hahaha.
yeah, sudda been done right to left.
it spells two zero.
i'm twenty 20 20 20 20 20.
a year had flown past & i tell ya i can't wait to party out loud tonight.
much had changed yet there's something that remains the same.
I AM STILL STANDING OUT LOUD, and stronger this time. :)

2010-01-01T21:38:00.002+08:00

1st sign of 2010.

abelene where u? been missing you in the pics. ><

lively, fun, exciting! i'm dripping sweat in fun. i still pretty much love the fireworks & everything kick start my beginning of year. buddies i had fun with ya'll. love all, xoxo.

2009-12-31T04:28:00.004+08:00

Beautiful ain't it? 31st Dec 2009

Oh yea, it's last day of 2009. been hell of a ride, kick ass bump mine. kiss it embraced it, love it. hate it pissed of it even tear about it. my, it's been a year i looked back & smiled it's not easy it's not beautiful but i made each steps through. thanks for everything from the goods the bads it made me more salty as a man.
& here's here's here's.
guess their 17 now, & SPM is past tense for them.
pong pong happy birthday, tina you too.
sorry couldn't make it to your places,
you girls have the best in the coming year. [:

pong & vivien

magarita tina

2009 done & dusted. ;p

2009-12-26T17:22:00.011+08:00

La Christmas

Party people, this year's been tough on my toe.
But i survived through the hurdle & flies,
it's christmas.

ze venue
eve was in Wisma FGA,
this FGA CYC rocks my socks off.
it was a church that doesnt fit the image of one,
it's not holy, it's in your face & it's current. this
church was the bomb from the few religious ground i've been to.
i fit in perfectly fine. :)

then on the night of christmas,

well santa practically sent a place called Library.

we play on d gifts we present ourselves with.

it's beautiful, it's musical, & well it's beer-licious.

hahaa...

this holiday is way enjoying than any i've recalled. it was good, it was loud

& most importantly i'm thrilling happy about each day that's gonna come

even if i'm stucked home it's a beauty. but nothing can really hold me

down can they? lol... MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR! merry merry be merry be me. :D

2009-12-20T12:44:00.004+08:00

i'm totally absorbed in the holiday mood.

images from yester year.

this year can't wait to be part of the celebration, i'm totally enthralled just thinking bout it for weeks. After the finals, my mood had been great. Been walking and hopping malls, basketball court, station one with friends. this might be the most sinful holiday i'm enjoying, still my holiday won't be complete without going alcoholic binge & get hungover. this will be in the coming weeks, love ya santa & dear people who'll join the fun. Enjoy your holidays, muah. :)

2009-11-29T05:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIEN!

hey, happy 17th birthday. i'm sorry i couldn't be there long enough for you. Good luck in your SPM, and your one of the best form of friend i ever had. and very super friendly with good intentions. people who doesn't know you well would think something else, but you sis rock socks off. one of the most caring person i've came to know. ;)

2009-11-01T11:54:00.026+08:00

Me Against Myself

hey peeps, it's been a while. i haven't really got the urge to post much, perhaps i just don't feel like writing that often. but here's a little to spill on this public diary of mine.

30 Oct 09 Friday
Halloween Party
it was disappointing for me,
the deco sucks, the music not good,
the performance below average.
i'm quite a critical person i guess,
everything was boring but
it was good that at least had the last
groupies with blene before i'll see her again
next 2months. i went for a haircut,
& it's all good.

29 Oct 09 Thursday
after class, straight hopped into

amanduh car. & we went for MJ This is it.

the movie was inspiring, though some

rehearsal wasn't really that good &

i didn't get to hear some of my favs

from him.

it was a good day tho. =)

28 Oct 09 Wednesday
quite belated birthday for you bro,

hehe. we went to Station One two nights

in a row. & from rawang branch, to

Sunway branch opposite of MOS.

then we venture to Murni with

jiao jon & MC.

27 Oct 09 Tuesday
Macaronies Mania

well prepared by Abelenie,

chan, amanda, me crash the fun

we ate till quite superb full before class

starts.

don't know this is anger or what,

i don't even feel good about it.

grrrrrrrr, i wanna swim for the rest of the

day.

Signing off,

with love, hans.

2009-10-21T23:12:00.006+08:00

Hoolah back to you. =)

Courtesy to the End of my Finals!

1) 3weeks of stress is now historied.

2) had a grouping with love love love friends. =) we had dessert, food, and a food movie? Cloudy With Chance of Meatball, loved it. laugh at it hard & childishly. You guys made my day a glitzie one.

3) work out after 2week absence? i'm gaining fats again. =( needa needa workout.

4) glad to have my grandpops blazer. ^^

5) i had gone through a very suckish week, super miserable.

& lastly, for those who read this fucked up blog, i'm sorry if i sound emo but that's i did this for my self purpose & public to view it as u wish. i don't give a damn how ugly i look to u cos i know what i'm doing. =)

i dont know where to go from here, if this was what it's ought to be...

2009-10-12T23:04:00.004+08:00

i won't come second best, either first or never be in the race to find myself second.

happy 21st birthday Jennifer, it was a good party & i'm glad to receive the little mail that you given everyone on the birthday party. it is really nice to have a friend like u. =) the past freaky days was assignment loads. & finals is next week, can't wait to get it down & rockin the beat. the friends that's been with me all this while still, YOU GUYS ROCKED! my life couldn't be better without you all.

i won't be living off this moment, you guys made it for me. & & &, Evelyn Ngui Ailing you rock my world.

signing off.

2009-10-05T03:04:00.003+08:00

Chasing Time

Hey peepers,

yeah i know i been out of touch lately. Let's see, this next few weeks gunna be a busy one. i've got 2 assignments, & a 40minutes drama to catch up on. hope everything would turn out just right cus i really wanna ace my subjects & maintaining that 3.2 cgpa.

now that's one thing, nother thing is that i been a super good at procrastinating. hmm, by 18 i wanna get a hot bod & i'm 19 now. wad da fuck? had heart to heart talk with my bestie & i am really bothered Hell NO i don't wanna be spending time talking the same conversation of what if at 30 with him. NO! ps; oh please hans get rid of that laziness! it's sulking you into internal walk of shame not walk of fame. i want to relish that potential in ME.

Yeap, one month's passed since her bday. things been going smoothly with a bit of stumbling block. but well, it's a pretty one eventhough it haven't start. i'm glad that things just slowly moving on. hope we don't screw up this time. In grieve misses, she's well into her dreams now. ><

catch up soon, on hiatus due to assignments! chow readers. wish me luck. hehe.. ;p

2009-09-24T05:20:00.002+08:00

let the rain fall

tired, exhausted, dirty, filthy.
a superb week, then all came crashing down like a plane
from way up caught in hurricane tumble down real
fast. SMASH unto the the ground.
i played basketball, now is 5.22am, sud have been sleeping.
here i come bed,
the song I GOTTA FEELing kept ringing,
that tonights gonna be a good night that tonight gunna be a goodnight.

miss my bed, love ya readers. this one i guess it's called
finally divided by words so undecided, running through the
field where all my tracks be concealed & there's no where to go.
~time to take a breather ;)

2009-09-21T02:21:00.002+08:00

Hee, here's how it reveals bout myself.

What others see from your style?
You probably live in your own little world and studiously avoid having to search for your own identity. You may feel that you are not loved, and being in your imaginary world is your way of coping with this. You get moody easily.

What your nightclothes reveal?
You're a romantic person at heart. You are imaginative but your temper can sometimes get in the way of your happiness.

What others see from your ties?
You are a caring people. You are romantic, witty, and easygoing. You compromise rather than confront, and love nature.

What others see from your belts?
You are a frank, assertive and sometimes flamboyant person. You are friendly and want to be accepted by everybody. You like to have fun, to be free, and to live a comfortable lifestyle.

What others see from your shoes?
You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings?
You are a hardworking people. You are serious and capable. You know what you want out of life, and you go after it.

The last analysis?
You are probably a clever and adventurous person. You love to learn new things, and enjoy socializing with friends. Although you enjoy your freedom, you cherish peacefulness and like to spend time alone with your thoughts.

i had a good week! everything had gone good so much that i hope this happiness would last. =)
~love hans

2009-09-11T00:29:00.015+08:00

080909 Happy Birthday LowSimGuang =D

so went to Sunway for buffet, den wongkok for a cake smashing period.
Jason is in black, GuguMeng in red, Heng in Black, Me in Black, Jon in white, MeiChen in Black, Jenner in Green. i had a great fun celebrating Mr.Json Low birthday! hehe...

his my one of the bestest friends i ever had, probably might ever had. times we shared, joys we had, thrills we ride on, terror that strucked us, everything i am glad to have everyone of them with you guys. really.

~love hans

2009-09-07T12:53:00.004+08:00

Higher Ground

been long long long seriously i don't know how long was that,

it was one of the best morning i had for a while just talking on the phone for hours.

& abruptly i had to wake up from sleep to go to temple,

it was a last service.

i feel bad, i couldn't pull my strength to focus completely on the prayers as i've got things on my mind running through like a waterfall flowing tremendously. it's of responsibility i kept questioning & finding ways to make sure it gets into his head hoping he'll at least change a bit. i'm sick of meddling with money matters, perhaps money do make the world go round or at least make mine lesser of predicaments.

rest in peace grandpops.

well, i'm really happy to at least get a moment to talk to u, lyn. it makes my day whole brighter.

so & forth my beloved readers. muah till then. =)

2009-09-05T15:24:00.014+08:00

Blene 21st Bday. *belated version. hehe

it's been long freaking damn while since i got cranked up by those jokers that got on celebrating Abelene birthday! hehe... Me & Chan planned just want to celebrate it for her cus she is superb close friend. =D
& again of cos, let the picture show you what we enjoyed!

*love hans

2009-09-05T14:50:00.019+08:00

020909 My College Heartthrob

my heart's racing whenever she came close,
mind's is like in a warzone, but the words just wouldn't come out.
words are just mere words, can't fully prescribed even at half of what i went through.
i love this feeling & the way i'm torn apart deep down to know this is something
more than ordinary.
& the photos will do some talking to please the viewer thirst of curiosity.

~love hans =D

2009-09-03T02:29:00.004+08:00

night full of sound & fury, but i only know smile of your face lights up the town.

had an awesome great superb night right on 2nd Sept,
i am really really really glad she's happy about it.
i guess all that mattered was just seing the person you like happy.

i guess my past is kinda funny cos the way i look at myself then was so stupid. lol, alot of mistakes happened & somethings i went on did that i regret. alot alot whole lots of really unavoidable stupidity that i seriously hope someone have a time machine let me undo all those stupid things. i am really coming into my last teen years i had been living life like a big pile of whole mistakes. i could prescribe i'm just like a rotten apple with lots of worms in it. & i am officially sick of it & i want to stop all of this stupidity, living my life full of mistakes is not what i ever want. i still miss my grandpa lots. ><

PURSUIT of Happiness

2009-09-01T02:34:00.005+08:00

Fill the lights, cause when it's dark diamonds don't shine.

Like an apple hanging on a tree, pick the ripest one i still got the seed. Close to 3, supposed to be dead on bed now. But hey, week has gone by,i update you

1) workout twice in the week
2) thursday was a highlight sauna, gym, swim! =D
3) saturday i shopped with mom & bros. lol i'm not a good son
4) sunday just sang k late wee hours
5) monday i swim again, like there's no tomorrow if i could & got LadyGAGA the fame.

i'm addicted to materials opposing the typicals, loving the retro glams. =p
is the world changing or what? what's with the boom boom disco sound in a chinese ceremonial services.

i smile everytime you pass by

2009-08-25T01:12:00.003+08:00

Hello Sophomore Year. =)

Wow, what a Monday. it's been a year i'm stucked in this sucky school that i not ought to be on, but i'm pretty much settled now. Things changed & some stays the same, i still remember how fucked up it was for me to stepped into a school that i don't really like. But i made it here, life has got it's way of playing games & i tagged along the ride it was a heck of a ride and i'm not even at half of the journey.

So there goes my super really freaking bored holiday. i only worked for 5 days, made some of the days useful going to workout & that was pretty much it. i still missed my grandpa alot, but got used to it i guess. first few days was a lot of nightmare, but today i'm glad the result was pretty much end of nightmare & a new challenge awaits. i worked in the office & manda came by gave a big hug. she was expecting "bird brain" from my mouth, instead i gave her "i'm going to kill you!" Statistic is horrendous! it is really that sucked bored, then on i had good chat with people & then hit the gym. hit the restaurant had a good catch up session of what i missed out in the holiday. In my sophomore year now, ready to rock & roll.

~love hans

2009-08-12T20:08:00.002+08:00

take me away

past week i've done working. now all i really want is just a place to take me away for a moment. a big sigh & there goes the day. perhaps sleeping whole time is best way to speed up the time, i miss my grandpa. i missed so many things, it's just life.

2009-08-01T19:40:00.003+08:00

take away the shots, i don't need a guilty pleasure.

the past month was a pair of shoe made of black & white. was riding high on a mountain & next fall short, missed a train. lost the tracks, where all one really wants to do is give a damn shouting the lungs out. somethings is beyond my control, & all i wished was just not find myself to care about it at all cos it pains the shit out my fucking life to hope for a wonderland.

2009-07-31T01:24:00.002+08:00

take care.

i send hans to electric chair, & watching bare eyes i pulled him back here. he's already dead watching the chair, though he'll be a living coward not the dead hero. if i wrote the script then why the troublemaker.

i'm not fooling around when the sky gets dark, i don't want to be one standing alone when rain pours. i need shelter, & i don't wanna be just one of the tonnes of fish in the water. the past haunts, but i've got ghosts from pasts too. i won't beg for mercy, even deep down the pain is inevitable. *whisper the warmest winds surrounds you in happiness & greet you best of luck.

guess i'll suck up this time too, i've caused my own poor records.

btw, i feel alive when our lips collide. just like fireworks that ruled the sky in majestic beauty.

2009-07-29T14:32:00.010+08:00

not a bird, not a plane. it's my heart & it's going gone away

was cleaning up store room, & here's what i found.
*treasures

time flies, people come & go. treasure those significant ones & appreciate what your having now, for it might be gone next moment.

~with love, hans.

2009-07-28T16:37:00.008+08:00

starting feel little abused like coffee machine in the kitchen.

hey readers,

been a week since i found a part of me had gone somewhere distant.

after the rainy days, hoped that i could be the rainbow

that colors your heart.

i've got so many to tell but so little to say when

your right in front of me,

i see you in my dreams, i feel you distant away,

perhaps i'm just another passer by to you, or even nothing at all.

i feel powerless over my insecurity,

i ask i pray i hope that i could overcome this final throttle

then i could walk with courage

all i know & cared about somehow deep down,

the least is just your happier by the moment.

~love hans

2009-07-25T00:05:00.002+08:00

just thanks.

thank you for the warmth. really mean it, & back to normal.

i do miss him like i always will, but things gotta go sometimes.

times up & what you have now appreciate it. for what's lost

may never return back to you. i had a wonderful 19year

run with my grandpops. he was super uber nothing less than

a legend for me.

hey, this part here's for me. people don't worry, i'm not the kind

of guy who will let myself suck in things forever & ever. NO!

time to stand up, game's changed. *you realized alot when someone

close to you is gone. & sulking don't help! thank you mortals, love you

all who showed some warmth. *muahs =)

2009-07-23T14:06:00.002+08:00

1 word.

TIRED.

2009-07-21T12:13:00.003+08:00

the day was 20th July 2009.

Grandpa Rest In Peace.
your absence is duly missed by me.
i won't forget you.

Thank you for everything.
I love you,

love hans.
i won't be available for these days
& thanks for everyone who cared.
meant alot for me

2009-07-20T02:22:00.003+08:00

Life Goes On

a little bit trouble sleeping~ wake up~ online~ eat~ online~ Secret Recipe~ Online ~Sleep ~Look Out point.

the view breathtaking. it silence the predicament temporary for that moment it's just like bliss of heaven & i got the bird eye to witness it.
still pretty much miss her. & not a day goes by without thinking bot grands.

2009-07-19T13:12:00.004+08:00

S.O.S she's in disguise

There’s a She Wolf in the closet.

It's Shakira Shakira. =)

i haven't put a pause to this tune since yesterday.

She's back & rocking again.

Fav. female artist after Christina Aguilera.

2009-07-19T04:40:00.003+08:00

Let the droplets run through streams, where it ends at the sea.

for 19years of my life, he's been there watching caring loving.
today probably it'll be the last few moments or the last i'll see
him breathing air again.
it's painful to know, i might not be able to celebrate CNY, to go Kuala Selangor
feed monkeys, get me tasty durian, feed me shark fin soup, just about
everything that i loved. & all i could do to make him feel at ease is study.
*focus focus, 3 years till degree ends baby.
guess i'll miss you by even the thought you'll leaving this mortal world.
thank you grandpa for everything, deep in my heart it's where i keep
those moments locked in tact. Hope some force could show daylight for you
been the best grandfather i could ever needed.

dude, it feels weird with random people coming over randomly to your
blog & read where you spill some crap over.
well, i need space & this part here is mine.
fuck off & get a life if any sick ass needed good treatment
for seeping into people business. =)
just because he's a man doesn't make him a steel.
got blood running through him

~love grandson, hans.